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02.12.08 San Francisco and LA here I come. Going back to the west side for a few weeks, gettin my shizzle on at The End Up in San Fran on V-Day. So, have you heard, garage is back? (and I will be throwin some down in San Fran) Check it

12.14.07 I'm currently sitting on the floor of my boyfriends studio apartment, smoking a freshly rolled spliff. I'm revisiting this mix, contemplating one year later what motivated me then, and what still makes it central to my reality now. Its an honest mix. What do I mean by honest?

I set out with specifics goals when making this mix. There are two central ideas that compromise it and I followed an emotional and analytical formula. This was quickest mix I have recorded to date, 4 days. Its a translation of how I feel about love, god, and every crazy, wonderful, sad, beautiful, phenomonal, frightening thing about everything. Each track was a petal to the flower. It was as much about the space in between as the sounds themselves. Its about the void, and what fills it. With each track I chose I asked, what does this say, if anything? I wanted a suttle mix of genres. Each track was played out almost in its entirety, every note had to be heard.

This mix was also silently dedicated to someone for there inspiration in its making. People, as flawed as we think we are, are miraculous creatures. We allow each other to experience love, and a whole collection of other emotions and experiences. If it is only for a moment we come together, I can always be thankful for what people allow me to experience and what they teach me. This is a recognition of the beauty, and the ugliness, that people can create together.

A year later I can still listen to it and enjoy it. I'm still in that place.

08.26.07 "I continue to listen to the Tongue and Cheek mix over and over. I love it, it takes so many elements of music that I love and puts them into one: minimal, detroit, haunting melodies, cerebral effects, warmth and soul. There is a maturity about it, a deep understanding of music and emotion. This mix has been an emotional and spiritual grounding point for me this summer, and I thank you. If you are ever coming up to Alberta, please let me know. I'd love to not only have a chance to see you perform, but perhaps extend your trip to edmonton." Thank you Aaron!

07.13.07 Is it slightly ridiculous of me to mention that Harry Potter comes out today?

It's a very interesting state of contentment, one when you are in the middle of things, and you don't know what way your going to turn. When you lay down the reins, when awareness is no longer captive, freedom. That freedom is faith.

07.09.07 It's 1:14 am, I moved out of my place that I'v been living in for 4 years, now I will be a "bag lady" for a time. I'm on a little vacation from permenant places, and imperminant material and weighty "things". I'm really excited about the Butterfly EP as well. Thanks to Daniel for his genius.

04.07.07 I am baptized Christian, but I am not a practicing Christian, regardless these holidays have significance for me and should for all, no matter what denomination you are. Today especially, now when we are in a great paradigm shift, the meaning of Easter as it is, representing the resurrection of Christ, takes on new meaning.
We are in a time where the second coming of Christ has been prophecized. This second coming is not the birth of a single man or women but of a consciousness, a divine consciousness, a cosmic consciousness, that is within each being on this earth. There is no separation from God, we are God. God is every butterfly, every bird, every lake, every ocean, every tree and every flower. These are the manifestations of God through the mother that is nature. God is also every painting, every piece of music, every beautiful artistic creation manifested through the divine creator that is man. God is also war, disease, and pollution, manifested through the divine creator that is man.
Today, thousands of species are on the brink of extinction, and if you have not noticed so are we. Would it awaken people if we were to add ourselves to the list of endangered species in a formal press release? The rise in cardiovascular diseases, asthma, obesity, diabetes, and cancer; diseases that have risen in such alarming numbers and at such alarming rates since the industrial revolution due to pollution in our air, our food and our water. We are the great creators of our world. Until we take responsibility for the state of the this great planet we leave ourselves powerless to change.
One of my earliest memories of thought when I was a child was we can be anything, do anything, and the world can be anything we want! It can be as beautiful as we desire, but will only be as beautiful as we truly intend. So why don't people make it so? Why are buildings crumbling, old and grey? Why does trash litter the streets, streams and oceans? Why is the air we breath blackened by unnecessary pollution? The outer world is a direct reflection of our inner world. People that litter and destroy, you will find have little love for themselves, or for others. The operate from greed, from ego, from selfishness.
We now have clean, healthy, sustainable alternatives. More companies are choosing sustainable ways to produce products. More cars are being made to conform to cleaner standards and use alternate fuels. Still vigilance is required from each and every one of us. Buying organic is essential, recycling is required. We do not need to cut down our forests for trees for paper, nor do we need to grow cotton that degrades soil for clothes. There are alternatives which we have to demand from companies. Do you really need to use your car to walk a half mile to the store? Do you really need to use papertowels when washable rags will suffice? Do you really need to wash all your clothes with hot water which wastes so much energy and contributes so much carbon to the atmosphere? Do you really need that plastic bag at the drug store for a magazine and a bottle of water?
If you wish beauty and peace in the world, start with your world, start with your home and start with your heart. Make it as great, as beautiful and as loving as your vision can create. Know that your vision, your imagination, is as limitless as the Universe itself, the Universe that is God! We create our past, our present and our future, through our thoughts, ideas, and actions. Be the divine creator you are, for the benefit of yourself and for all the world around you.

03.08.07 Questions and Answers; What's most important for you about electronic music? This is The DJ Friendly Records question in this months private promo release. It's funny it's coinciding with other questions I am asking myself which are directly related to this subject. The questions really are "What do I want?" and "What makes me happy?". Really what do I want, and what really, really, really, makes me happy? I am at a critical point. I am currently faced with making some decisions in my life that will change everything. What I do, where I live, who I want to be. These decisions are fueled by the above questions. I have been too hard on myself, on my mind and my body and I am now forced to make changes. Now that I am asking myself these questions directly, instead of just forging ahead following an instinctual urge, the energy I have been putting into music for the past decade is under question. I am now asking myself do I really want to do this anymore? I want to really think this over and consider this, because if I do, I think the direction it will lead me in will be far more fulfilling. Why do I dedicate my energy to this form of creation, why do I do this? Is it making me happy? Do I want to do this anymore? I am now trying to imagine me not doing it and you know what, I can't. I just can't imagine me not dedicating a part of my creative energy, and a part of my soul to music. Eleven years ago I fell in love with electronic music and since then it has been the best friend and best lover I have ever had. It's always been there for me when I needed it, it has always loved me unconditionally, it has always had a kind word and soft embrace for me when I needed it most, it has always inspired me. It has made me laugh, made me cry, it has made me dance and sing, it's taken me to so many places in the physical and spiritual realm, its brought me closer to myself, to my soul and to God. It's heightened every experience Iv ever had and it's inspired me to love, to live and to share. How could I not want to do this? How could I not want to create love and experience through one of the most powerful forms of expression known to man? Sometimes we need to stop and ask ourselves these questions so that we may fully realize our dreams. Music has given me so much. Yes it does make me happy. When what I create causes someone to feel, to smile, to love, if it even slightly brightens there day, adds a spring to there step and a spark to there soul I must consider this because it is fulfilling my souls desire, it is making me happy and it is what I want to do!